Yup, I've been a little lazy I'll admit. Tired, exhausted, school is stressing me, but those are all silly excuses, I was going to tell you a story about Rob, Kara and Dannie. I'm not particularly in the mood but it's got to be told eventually.
Rob and I had been together for a year and three days, as I had mentioned before, my closest friend through that entire time was Kara, we met in school, it was our Junior year at that time, she was always there for me, she said she thought Rob was a bum at first, but her and I had to practice for forensics and he was available to help us with the male parts. The entire time we were at his house he was flirting with her non-stop and she was embarrassed because she doesn't get flirted with often but she acted as if he was just acting stupid, although later she admitted that she was kind of enjoying the flirting and pushed it on a little.
The next week Rob invited her and I to his youth group where he payed all of his attention to her and completely ignored me the entire time, I was really jealous but didn't say anything, afterward he was paying even MORE attention to her and was holding her hand and even laughed at me and said "so?" when I said he was acting like a prick for flirting with my best friend shamelessly in front of me.
The next day, I broke it off saying that I didn't care if she dated him but I wasn't going to hang around, and they did start going out... but my plan didn't go to well. Rob said that I HAD to hang out with him because he couldn't lose me as a friend. I said fine just don't do shit in front of me, he agreed.... and then failed to up hold his half, but stupid me I still hung around. Eventually after three weeks to a month he got bored with her because she wouldn't spread her legs and started going back out with me.
Now that I've elaborated on that I'll go into the REAL story that I've been meaning to tell (or at least the first part will be in this next paragraph-ish-thing)
As you know I got pregnant, I tried to break it off plenty of times with him but it never lasted because he always promised that he would change or something along those lines, once I did go on a three day streak where I was "thinking" about whether I was going to break up with him or not, and at the end of that one where I said I had come to a decision, he saw the look on my face and got down on his hands and knees in the middle of a fucking parking lot and started begging me to not leave him, saying on his camping trip he had come to a spiritual revelation and that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me and that he couldn't live with out me. Silly me, I took him back just so he would stand the fuck up and quit embarrassing me, but within the next week I ended it for good. We were all at Kara's house, Dannie, Kara, Rob and I (I haven't mentioned Dannie because she's just kind of there, unnoticeable really but she was sitting on the couch during this episode). I had basically been pulling myself away from Rob because I didn't like him anymore, and he noticed and asked me if I loved him still and I said no and that I really didn't want to be in this relationship any longer. He simply stood up, said he was going to look for jobs in Superior and left, Kara, Dannie and I all looked at eachother in amazement, we all expected him to explode on me and a huge argument to ensue.
Turns out he didn't go to Superior, instead he went and bitched about me to his mommy, bummed around for two days then came back to Kara's house, the whole crew was there again, along with one extra person who played a big part in the situation, Ryanne, I'm using her real name because I'm still friends with her and I don't want to remember seven billion different names. I was there because I had nothing better to do and I just completely ignored him, to me, he wasn't even there, I just talked to Kara and Dannie the entire time. Dannie then suggested that we go to the park, innocent enough, we went the girls and I talked then we went home.
HERE was where he finally said something to me something along the lines of 'please talk to me and at least be civil' except I remember it being more pathetic sounding and annoying but I'm probably biased.
I asked him what there was to talk about and he said 'anything' and then proceded to talk about how he's right, I'm wrong and we should just get back together and live happily ever after. By the time he had finished saying what he wanted to say, we were back at Kara's house, Ry had went home to grab something to eat but was going to come back, Dannie was in the shower and Kara was on the computer.
Then it was my turn to talk, but I barely got anything in, I said that I just didn't want to be with him and he interrupted me and asked why. At the time I was on the spot and didn't have a witty response that I would have liked to say, so I just said 'i don't need a reason, I don't want to be with you plain and simple' and each time I said something he would return with, 'that doesn't make any sense we should get back together and live happily ever after' (although not in those words obviously, that's just what I got from them)
I eventually got frustrated because the conversation was going in circles, I hadn't had lunch yet and I was becoming dehydrated, and raised my voice a notch, he still wouldn't listen so I decided to turn the conversation to me and say "I'm hungry, I'm dehydrated, I need some water" but he wouldn't let me get any and kept acting like a broken record so I raised my voice considerably, but not quite yelling yet, and said "I need some water move!" to which he responded "DON'T SCREAM AT ME!!!!" yes, that voice inside your head that just screamed in a very loud and scary way, that's what happened.
I then ducked under his arm (in court he said that I had shoved him out of the way) and ran to the front door, opened it but then he slammed it before I could get out, picked me up and threw me across the room towards the back door so I used my momentum to make it there and I tried to open the back door but it was stuck I heard him say to Kara "call 911" I had just unjammed the door when he had got to me and when I felt him towering over me I covered my stomach and he hit me, close fisted, in the arm and managed to get a hit in my lower abdomen. After the hit to my stomach he stopped and wrapped his arms around me and started chanting "I'm sorry I'm so sorry" and I responded by screaming "let me go, don't fucking touch me, get off me" I managed to push him off just enough so that when Ryanne came through the front door he was able to turn around and look to see who was there, I took that opportunity to run out the back and down the street.
That's basically all there is to know about that situation. If he hadn't made a plea bargain the charges would have been Child Abuse, False Imprisonment, and Endangerment. That's allot of years. Instead the felony charges were dropped to misdemeanor charges and he now has 18 months probation, I believe it's been 5ish that has passed since then? Either way he can't see me until Leo is one and a half (that's what mom said anyway I never felt like doing the math)
Now there's another story that I feel the need to add on to the end of this, it's the story that explains why Kara and I are no longer on speaking terms. Now Kara was absolutely terrified of Rob after the assault, Dannie wasn't though, she invited him to her house during lunch frequently which is I guess how Kara stopped being afraid of him. But either way they started talking again, and then Rob started telling her that he's always loved her, that she was the only one for him, and that he would wait until marriage to have sex and all that other junk, the same shit he was saying to me before I broke up with him.... minus the sex part obviously. And eventually she gave in and said: okay fine, I'll go out with you again but you have to prove yourself to me.
Which I'm guessing he did because when my birthday came around I had made plans to hang out with everyone, then have Kara stay the night so we could go to Irvine Park and just fuck around and be stupid like we used to, instead she and Dannie went to Dannie's house because Dannie's mom wanted to "talk to Kara" they were gone for 20 minutes and came back we finished watching the mockumentary that I had gotten from netflix, ate cake and dinner...... and then everyone left claiming exhaustion............... at eight thirty, AND they dragged Ryanne out too saying they would take her home. I go upstairs, alittle depressed because my plans were ruined and my eighteenth birthday was turned to shit only to see out my window KARA'S CAR at none other than Rob's house and they're laughing and talking and having a swell time, except Ry because they threatened her if she told me what they were doing. I was obviously pissed but let it go because I didn't know what was really going on, the next day Kara's status on Facebook said "watching a movie with the BF talk to you later", she then messages me on Facebook saying "hey don't be mad at me" I was already furious but asked her why shouldn't I be mad at her, she then said she didn't want to hang out with me that day and I went off, I was beyond mad, I never confronted her about seeing her at Rob's house but I should have, I told her how great of a friend she was and how she always cared so much for me as a friend *scarcasmscarcasmscarcasm*. I had virtually no friends after that except Ry, and I quickly started hanging out with Julie after that episode.
Any way, that's that, and that is why I don't talk to Kara, and why I barely acknowledge Dannie.
anywho, Long post is long, it should make up for the lazy days at least.
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